Katie Girl's Little World

No, REALLY, what should I do with my LIFE?!!!

There is huge battle within me.  A battle of passion and fear hitting each other head on trying to knock the other down continuously.  I find myself so frustrated at knowing what my passion is anymore.  It seems that I have become so comfortable with living in the warm hands of complacency, that I don’t realize me being there was in fact driven by fear.  Today I sat at lunch with my husband and while we were in the middle of a conversation I asked him, “What am I supposed to do with my life?”  He thought I was being light, and he laughed and said, “I don’t know, I can’t tell you that…”  I looked him straight in the eyes and made myself more poignant, “No, I want to know! What do you think I should be doing with my life!?”  When I asked that question the second time, I felt a plea from the deepest part of my soul as a singe of anger rose up as a lump in my throat.  Truly I wanted an answer so badly and I wanted a “for sure” answer, but I knew he couldn’t possibly answer it for me.  I came back into work and stared at the computer screen in front of me.  Collin suggested I write down what I would like to do with my life.  I stared at the blank page and slowly began to type in some of the things I would love to do.  If you would have asked me 2 years ago I could tell you my passion.  My passion was to be a singer, a musician, a songwriter and performer.  Now, I am in a midst of confusion on defining my goals and passion.  I feel as if providing for Collin and I this year and supporting his dreams of music has changed how I feel about my life.  Our friend wrote a song about Collin wearing his dreams on his sleeve in our relationship and that song almost hurts me because I feel like since Collin and I have been together I have worn my dreams on my sleeve, not the other way around.  That may sounds selfish, I know it does, but it’s honest.  I know God rewards humility and I feel like I’ve been beat down a lot lately but I guess that doesn’t always mean that you become humble.  I just wonder if I will ever get to do what I love to do… And if what I loved to do, is still what I love to do.  I wonder if music is a passion that has been suffocated by fear and excuses that have come straight from yours truly.  I know I have a lot more on my plate than I ever have, but could I have done more to keep this passion alive or is it time to say good-bye to that time in my life and move on.  I feel so numb that I can’t tell anymore.  I know I need to pray about it and I have been, probably not enough.  My mom keeps on telling me I need to go on American Idol along with the rest of my friends & family in Loveland, CO.  I would rather throw-up 100 times in a row than go on that show.  It literally terrifies me.  The main reason why is because I feel like if I failed it would completely relinquish any passion I had for performing at all.  What if I’m not any good?I have always been a person to take risks but when it directly involves a deep passion I care about I am paralyzed by fear.  I hate it.As I sit here in my gray box I am dying to be creative to laugh and sing.  I pray that God provides a way out and that I will have the faith to move and not be paralyzed by fear.  Life is so short and I want to live!  I just don’t know how I’m supposed to live!  What thing I should do!  I know I think to much, and that is why I wrote all this out so I can manage my thoughts a little better.  If you read this and feel like I do I pray that God gives you clarity and peace.  Please pray for me.

Making the Cut!

So about two weeks ago, I cut my long locks to a shockingly short haircut! AHH! Can you believe it? I dragged my beautiful cousin/ hairstylist in to do the job and we were on pins and needles hoping we didn’t make a huge mistake to take the plunge! Luckily it turned out fine and dandy! I actually feel much less worried about what I look like and having short hair is pretty fun!!! For some background, I have almost ALWAYS had long hair and most of the time VERY long hair so it was quite a shock for some people to see me with the huge change! It actually taught me something by cutting my hair! Forgive, if I sound cliche’ but beauty really isn’t in a hairstyle, it’s in a persons laugh and smile and their kindness. I’ve decided to spend less time worrying about my hair and spend more time investing time into people. Long live love instead of living for long lucious locks! KT

Hello my lovely friends! On my blog I am going to talk make-up, hair, skin care and SO MUCH MORE!

Why?….Because I’m in love with it all! Enjoy and be sure to check in frequently for updates!

SKINCARE: Defeating the root of all EVIL!

Who doesn’t enjoy waking up in the morning, walking into the bathroom and squinting in the mirror as all the sudden a huge red zit smacks you across the face as says… “I’m heeeere!” or even worse, “I’m BAAACK!!” Needless to say pimples are annoying and even severe cases of acne can emotionally wear us down and scar our skin and our self esteem forever. This is not acceptable!

I personally have suffered with this yucko stuff since good ol’ middle school puberty. I have been to dermatologists, taken pills and antibiotics, used creams, used pricey skincare lines, facials and so much more! This is why I have chose this subject as my first blog, because girls, I am passionate about clear skin!!!

To do…or Not to do!

Tips for keeping your skin clear:

*Wash your face twice a day with a good cleanser & always use an oil free moisturizer, even if your skin is oily your skin needs healthy moisture so it won’t compensate with producing excess oil!

*Drink plenty of H20!

*Gently exfoliate with a fine scrub or exfoliating mask once a week

*Make sure fiber and Vitamin C is in your diet!

*Get plenty of shut-eye…(note: not getting enough sleep and poor nutrition are key in breakouts because they trigger stress and weaken the body’s immune system)

Things to steer clear of!

*Touching your face or picking at your skin *Baking your face under a tanning bed, (this may help at first but can end up giving you scars and/or cystic acne)

*Dehydrating yourself with caffeine, alchohol, (limit high sugar foods) (note: although sugar doesn’t cause a break out it can cause inflammation which makes your face look worse!)

*Don’t scald your face with hot water when washing

*Don’t over-wash skin

Recently I have come across two great lines of products that have changed my skin completely and I hope they help someone out there with this ugly struggle! As I share those, I will also share with you the types of skincare I have used that and are bad and some just plain UGLY! The big defining factor to be me consistentancy… And some of these products just don’t stand the test of time!

SkinCare Lines of the Moment:

The Good: 

These are the top three things in my skincare for now!

Murad: Acne Complex http://www.murad.com  

Kiehl’s: Rare-Earth Facial Cleansing Clay

• Natural clays for oil-absorption
• Lifts accumulated dead skin cells
• Beneficial for oilier skin types prone to blemishes
• Not tested on animals

A non-stripping, pore-cleansing clay masque to absorb excess surface oil. Leaves skin soft, clean and smooth.

 Kiehl’s: Abyssine Eye Cream $32 for 0.5 Ounce

This eye cream is amazing and so soothing!  It’s worth the moola!  My tired eyes always look awake after I put this You will fall in love I promise!

• Helps minimize the appearance of fine lines and wrinkles
• Defends skin from free radical damage
• Dermatologist tested
• Not tested on animals

The Bad:

ProActiv

Tea Tree Oil Face Wash

The Ugly:

Neutrogena Stress Relief Scrub

Clean & Clear Advanced Acne Free

St. Ives Peach Scrub

Biore Pore Strips

As long as there is no cure for acne us women will have to keep on being consistent with taking good care of our skin. With a clear glowing face the only thing people can see is your beautiful God-created natural self, acne is a mask that tries to hide that… But it’s not gonna win, is it?!

It is so beautiful today.  God is good and I love Him so very much.I have never seen His face before, but my heart aches wishing I could soon.I can’t wait to be singing in heaven.  That is my life’s passion and dream is to be singing in front of God at His throne.Ahhh…  It’s going to be wonderful!!!I am so thankful for God’s provision today.  I love how God always provides for you through unexpected and undeserved ways.I love my family, I love my church, I love my puppy, I love my friends, I love my job.All because it is God given, it is ALL GOOD!  Amen Sista!!!!

Monday, Monday!!!

Today at work is CRAZY!!  I am slammed with work and I have never shoved so much information in my mind that I needed to have available at any moment someone might ask me a question.  I also am feeling sick again… I know, don’t even feel bad for me, because me getting sick is just down right annoying now!!  I have a yucky cough, sore throat, stuffy head and feel run down…  What truly makes this annoying is that I have been taking a mutli-vitamin everyday and drinking protein shakes every morning!  I should be in tip-top shape if you ask me!!!  But nooooooooo…Oh Well!  But on the bright side!… Collin’s sister Lillian, her best friend Rose, & dad Craig are visiting us for a few days!  They came last Friday night and are leaving Wednesday morning.  I love having them here!  It’s so nice!!!  I can’t believe how fast their time here has already gone!!!  I don’t want them to go!  Tomorrow I actually got the day off from work to celebrate Lillian’s 17th belated B-day!  All the girls want to do is shop and that is FINE WITH ME!!!  I love hanging out with them.  I remember being in high school and how different life was then.  It’s so much fun to hangout with them and remember what it was like.  Come to think of it,  I was 17, six years ago… WOW.  I feel old!!! Ha! Ha!Last night we went over to Darby’s and watched La Vie En Rose.  It was quite long but good.  I wish I knew more about Edith Piaf on my own before watching the movie, but the lead actress who won a Academy Award, dazzled the screen.  She was magnificent and very entrancing.  One of the quotes in the movie by Edith, when she was being interviewed by a reporter, was asked “What would you do if you could not sing, Edith?” and Edith answered, “I could not live.”  I think I would feel the same way if I knew I could never sing again.  Singing makes me come alive and the sad thing about me is that I often forget that.  Everytime I return to the piano I cleanse my soul and I feel relaxed and at peace, but when I neglect my music I get into a jumbled forgetful mess of worries and frustration.  I was thinking of auditioning to sing for church.  I’m going to pray about that.Anyways, I will return and write some more soon.  In the meantime, I will be enjoying time spent with my sister-in-law, Rose, and father-in-law!  Good-day ladies and gents! xxxooo Katie

I'm Sleepy

Good night I’m sleepy and tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!  God is love, Rev Run…errrr….Katie Girl…:o)